Livestrong

I found probably the easiest tool I've ever used in my life to track my calories taken in and taken out. It takes all the guesswork out and takes my Google searching of "how many calories in xxxxx" down to almost zero, unless I'm unsure and double-checking. It's beautiful.


It's just at the Livestrong home page. Sign up, yada yada, the calorie tracker is free. w00t!


For my weight, though, the stupid thing is telling me to eat like 2,300 calories a day. Fuck. That.

Today was...
Two oranges - 100 kcal total. One in the morning, one in the evening.
One bottle of sugar free grape stuff - 0 kcal. w00t!
One cup of homemade egg drop soup - 61 kcal.
One cup of hot tea (It was blood orange and something else) - 0 kcal.

Look at these gorgeous figures below! Today was a 300 day, and I'm full right now. I might nibble a bit of my soup later, but I don't know. My day isn't even over. <3

Consumed

161

Calories Today

Burned

103

Calories Today

Edit: The belly has spoken. I went to try and nibble a bit of the egg in my egg drop soup, and my stomach immediately rebelled, threatening to make me throw up. My numbers stand for the day! I'm not long for the waking world, I think bed is in my near future.

400

I am. Freezing. Like, really freezing. My hands are cold, my feet are frozen in their socks, my legs are cold, my arms have goosebumps...Sigh. At least my chest isn't cold. Also, the tip of my right index finger hurts quite badly. Not sure why.


Anyway. On to the important stuff.


Breakfast:
1 slice rye toast. 80 kcal.


Lunch:
6 oz split pea soup (Not sure how I stomached it. T'was kinda nasty.) 120 kcal


Supper:
1 slice rye toast. 80 kcal.
5oz orange juice. 68 kcal.


Total: 348 kcal.


I'm debating cutting a slice of cheese in half to nibble at. My head is quite sore...I lacked a lot of protein today. I didn't eat as well as I was hoping I would.


Today is 348 kcal as of this blog post, before any exercise.
Tomorrow is a limit of 300 kcal. I'm also going to have access to an orange. <3 Yay.

Damn blood sugar.

Well, I edited all of my 2012 posts to sort of match with what I changed my blog to look like. I chose the darker look, because it hurts my eyes a lot less when I have to deal with darker colors with white or light gray as a foreground or text. I know it's not the same for everyone...But yeah.


Deep breath. Here goes nothing. Tomorrow starts another go at the SKG, which I'm predicting is going to fall apart this coming weekend - The Global Game Jam is like a second christmas to me. I'm going to do everything I can to resist the food they bring in unless I'm honestly going to faint - which will probably happen. Let's be honest here. Hypoglycemia doesn't mix well with refusing to eat for an entire weekend...I remember what happened at Youmacon.


T'wasn't good, let me tell you. I woke up Sunday in my ex-boyfriend's bed (he felt bad for me trying to curl up on his couch. It's comfy...for sitting. Laying, not so much.), basically unable to move because I was so weak. Despite the eight hours of sleep I'd gotten, I ended up forcing myself to eat cheese and some crackers, and I passed out right away. I hate that my family gave me blood sugar problems. I can deal with the weakness, but the sheer pain I feel when I go more than one day without eating is awful. Even painkillers won't help with it - I've tried everything from tylenol, to apsirin, to vicodin, to tylenol-3 with codeine, and none of it works.


Sigh...I'm sure my system will get used to it. It'll all be worth it when we're on the beach in silver bikinis, and for once I'm the one they're all looking at.


Not you, Vy. Me. For the first time since we met, I'll be the one getting the attention.


Edit: What have I done so far tonight?
100 cheater-pushups (my chest isn't strong enough yet for real ones...hurts like an unnecessary bitch.)
400 crunches
20 leg lunges (10 on each leg...And my god, they can not take that yet. I'm gonna stay at nice low numbers for a while.)
10 minutes of random stretching.


It's time for bed now...I hope I'm sore tomorrow. Last time...I didn't get sore...And I got worried that I didn't do any of it right.

I thought we'd escape...

Hi everyone. So, my whole backwards 2468 thing worked out well enough. But I'm just so afraid of falling off of it. I'm going to stick to this, starting tomorrow, Monday, January 22. And I'll keep following it until I reach my goal weight. Soon as I'm done typing this, I'm going to continue my nightly workout routine until I go to bed, whether that's at 1am or whatever. I won't go outside, though...It's scary and dark out there. Very cold and icy, too.

Did I ever tell you, I'm afraid of the dark? It puts me in an odd predicament, since I don't much like the light, either.

Either way. I'm going to start this up tomorrow. Starting on Day 1: 400 kcal. I can totally do this. With this, and my cardio, and my crunches and push ups (I want everything smaller...including the boobs. Back problems galore, fat or not.)

And...Here's something to listen to, if this post bored you. I love this song.

Popcorn~

Today. Is. Awesome. Today I started doing a reverse of the 2468 diet, starting at 800 calories. Tomorrow will be 600, Wednesday will be 400, and Thursday will be 200, and Friday I'll fast before indulging in a lovely 300 on Saturday.


So, you wanna hear how my day went? I woke up and nibbled on two frozen waffles after toasting them and putting nothing on them. That was 130 calories. I was still a little peckish, even after taking my new acai diet pills (Love you mommy~ Thanks for the drugs! No, seriously, thanks!), so I nibbled on half a serving of pretzels to stave off the dizziness they bring me. That brought me up to 210, total.


My ex-boyfriend came over, so we played video games for a while and smoked hookah while watching random Tim Burton films - so of course I didn't eat while he was around. I hate eating around people, which rocks. He was a boost to my self esteem, too - while he was here, I ended up getting random cuddles. Yay <3. While he was over, all I had was an Arizona iced tea with lemon, which was 270 by itself. That's only 480, which leaves me with 320 left before I finish for the day!

I just got done popping some popcorn, which will be 105 70 calories for the entire bag. My goodness. I still have 215 240 calories for the evening, and it's getting late. Eee~ I'm so proud of myself today. Tomorrow might be a little harder, but maybe if I eat the same thing as today, but without the Arizona iced tea (I'm out of them, I pawned my Arnold Palmer off on my ex when he came over. They're...Sort of a guilty pleasure of mine.), and maybe replace it with a bowl of cereal, I'll be a little below the 600. I don't know yet, I'm going to plan out my meals for the rest of the week.


EDIT: I measured out the popcorn that actually popped. There's only two cups, instead of three like the box says there should be...Which means I've got 240 calories left today. 35 more than I thought. Eeee~


So far I'm thinking I might not even have to purge this week. Awesome, because I haaate purging~

Ugh...My stomach feels odd...

I'm trying to get used to the feeling of hunger again. It's so weird, it feels almost like it's crying at me. I know, though. I know.


"My stomach isn't growling, it's applauding."


Maybe it's just too excited right now, and that's why it hurts.I'm going to go take a shower and go to bed...I'm not feeling well.


Today's limit: 1200 kcal. (1100 eaten)
Tomorrow's limit: 1000 kcal.


I'm going to slowly decrease, little by little... When I get used to about 600 kcal a day, I'll do the Skinny Girl Diet again. And follow all the way through. I can do this.

I'm so sore.

I really am just so. Sore. My neck and my shoulders and my back particularly. At least my legs aren't sore. I'm going to have to make sure that my back recovers tonight so I can do more crunches tomorrow in the morning when I wake up.


I think, tomorrow, I'm going to do some digital art and a lot of crunches, if Nyxxie doesn't need her tablet. If I do, I'll be live-streaming it, so here's the link ahead of time: Venna's Art

I set it up so it'll load in another window, in case you weren't done looking at things here.


For tonight, I think I'll do a bunch of stretches before bed - A dancer once told me that it helps you become more flexible if you stretch before bed as opposed to the first thing in the morning. I want to do a split this year. It sounds fun, doesn't it?


Anyway. Here's some pretty music to lull me to sleep.